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i hate ____ I'm ordered to do what I don't want to do at all i do not want to hurt you ,i'm sorry.please don't hate me no YOU hate me .I don't mind at all.I don't live to please you I don't know what to do I do not mind if you hate me.It doesn't matter at all.I don' I want to cry!I don't know what can i do!I'm very sad! at that moment i ---(know)what to do at all 英文歌,有一句i don't know what to do,i think i'm falling for you. At present,I am so depressed.and don`t know to do what .i wa I don't know what to do At time I feel like giving up I don't what to eat at all I understand,but,I don't know what to do?